Through it All

I may not look like what I have been through or have live/d with. It is a choice of mine to rise above my circumstance through the victory that Jesus has given me. I try to live by the fruit of spirit found in Galatians 5:22-23 KJV 22 But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. Also found in Ephesians 5:9 KJV (For the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness and righteousness and truth;). 

Sure I people and self disappoint me but I keep in mind that Jesus had the same obstacles and he kept on moving forward and not dwelling in the mess that he was dealt. So why should we waddle in the same mess that all we have; we have to do is look at what Jesus did and how he handled every situation. I feel that since the age of 12 things started to change how people in my immediate family viewed me. I was being beaten up emotionally, I used to cry myself to sleep because I really didn't understand being talked to as if I was an adult with choice words as well. I lived that way all through my first marriage and part of my second marriage. So what am I saying; I am in no way the sum of the things that tried to beguile me. 

Look here many people thought and felt/feel that I am very naive all because I choose to be humbled and let people think they have gotten the best of me, and in that I want the world to see the Jesus in me. I have to put my flesh under subjection to the word of GOD not man, cause the side of me no one really knows about me is that I am stuck up, very conceded, God's gift to the world and yet I am able to accept everyone where they are. Yes it takes disciplining yourself by the word of God and truly being saved and living the word in your heart and having the love of Jesus resonate through out your entire body. Look at Matthew 22:36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law? 37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. 38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. 40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets, 

I feel that these are the scriptures to live by and not only those but as my former Pastor Elder James E Carey told all of us that at night and when he awoke he prayed Psalms 19:14 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer. I took it farther by reading Psalms 19:7-14 every night and when I awake. 

A private look inside my difficult and trying marriage but do not get me wrong I have found out what agpe really is (unconditional love). I stumbled a lot in loving my husband the way he needed and stumbling with caring and showing love his way. I had to think outside the box and at times I felt exalted by creativity to keep things spinning in my world. Clashing love meant that I had to dig deeper and silence the outside audience and keep praying and letting God lead and guide me. Mother Hedgepath was my mentor in many ways as a wife and a mother she has showered me with many scriptures to read (Isaiah 49:22-26 read at night over your child/ren, Solomon and Hebrews 13 read daily for your marriage and for me she gave me to read the book of Ester and Psalms 37), She gave those to start my path since then I have added many more and so should you.   

Things that make one wonder how's

There are three things that amaze me — no, four things that I don't understand: how an eagle glides through the sky, how a snake slithers on a rock, how a ship navigates the ocean, how a man loves a woman one minute and can't love her the next.

There are several things that bother the heck out of me- yes, several: Like I can appreciate you while alone but when in public I am mistreating you like your beneath me, I can say I love you when you or I are leaving the house and going to bed, but ignore you while you sit beside me, That parent that displays hatred towards their child/ren and never there for them when they are in trouble, What about siblings that constantly fighting or arguing all the time it seems they never can get along, Church members disliking/hating one another or even the the very ones that look after their very soul (pastors, ministers on the roster and deacons), Parents that DO not watch their children and let them walk all over them like a doormat, People thinking that being a Christian is wrong but Christians are the ones compromising just not to offend anyone but they get to offend the Christians, We Christians put down each other like it is a prat of the air that we breathe and even our leaders as well, We demand respect like a two year old trying to get their way, We act like we're tough and say things that we never even meant to say but we are cowards when it comes to apologizing. Knowing how to run someone else's business when you can't even run your own (some calling it leaving your lane), How about cussing out your son/daughter while just holding a conversation, Bowing down to the wrong doing the wrong then to stand up for the right (SAME SEX MARRIAGES and calling it like Sodom and Gomorrah) Sodom and Gomorrah problem is everyone's else's problem called HOSPITALITY there I said it.

 Amazingly there are things that one just can not explain the how, like: how high is the heaven from the earth, how our sexuality turned on senses work, how does the vocal cords on animals work, how does earth and the other planets stay the distance they are and how do we really know the true distance if we never even been to the other planets, Science is built around hypothesised theorise no facts, how do we even know that pesticides and other chemicals are needed when they weren't needed in the days of Adam, Noah, and in the 18th century but it was developed in 1839ish when Muller found the compound DDT, ( when a Swiss entomologist named Paul
Müller discovered that a chemical compound called dichlorodiphenyltrichloroethane—DDT—was perhaps the most potent broad-based insecticide ever seen, effective even on pests that had developed a resistance to the old standby, arsenic.http://www.rodalesorganiclife.com/food/when-did-we-start-using-pesticides)

I have more but for now these will do.