I feel alone

Psalms 27 KJV

1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked and mine foes they come for me to eat up my flesh, they stumble and fell.
3 Though a host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the LORD, that I will seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD for all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.
5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in the pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me upon a rock.
6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
7 Hear, O, LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me,
8 When thou saidst, Seek my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, L, will I seek.
9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11 Teach me thy way, O, LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14 Wait on the LORD and be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

As a child growing up I felt alone because my mother told me that my father did not want me and then nether did she (shown by her own actions). Raised by my grandmother whom stayed in her lane as a grandmother and I love her for that. My mother has told me several times that she wanted a sister like relationship, but never realized my needs for her. As I grew up I knew of verse 10 but never understood it. Even though I was 8 years old when I prayed to God stretched out like Jesus was on the cross and I told God that I wanted his blood running in my veins, and I wanted to be Jesus' sister,
By that being said I have never knew the love of a mother or a father. Everyone that comes in contact with me think they know my livelihood better than I, and I living my life and they are not a part of my life. I have a lot of people who are in my life without being a part of my life.
As I grew older God has put in place people to help lead me and guide in the path of righteousness. So this chapter here as been my instruction of patience and seeking the Lord and learning how to pray. I have grown spiritually and mentally due to His goodness and mercies.


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